
Ülo Pikkov
Himself
A story of a mother and her son and a race against a tortoise where you always lose.

Himself

Thomas Haemmerli is about to celebrate his fortieth birthday when he learns of his mother's death. A further shock follows when he and his brother Erik discover her apartment, which is filthy and full to bursting with junk. It takes the brothers an entire month to clean out the place. Among the chaos, they find films going back to the 1930s, photos and other memorabilia.

The film is about the director’s mother, the movie actress Nina Antonova. Now she is 80. She has had hundreds of roles – big and small. It is a personal story about an honest and sad life, about self-sacrifice and freedom. Real fame as an actress came to her only once in her life. It was the leading role in the first Soviet colour TV series Varka’s Land. That was 45 years ago…

The Rastreadoras de El Fuerte are a group of mothers of disappeared persons in northern Sinaloa who, in the absence of the authorities, twice a week go out with picks and shovels in search of the remains of their children; a testimony of the abandonment of the State, the aggressions of the drug traffickers, the indifference of society and the pain, but also of the strength and courage that keep these women together, and of their empowerment to mobilize society in community organization.

Three people live in Doosan Apartment in Guro-dong. Me, mom, and my grandfather. Even though it has been 12 years since dad died, we are still living under the same roof. I thought it was because of the financial situation that we could not move out of grandfather’s house. But when I found out that mom already had enough money to get a house, I became confused. Why didn’t mom move out from the “x-world” when she could? From a marriage that didn’t work out well, to a father-in-law with a temper. Why has she been enduring it, unchanging, for all the time I had witnessed her life to become a woman against marriage? One day when my anxiousness was at its peak, grandfather suggested that we live separately. Mom, reluctant to leave Guro-dong that she’d been living in for 20 years and her marriage life, will she be able to find herself and move out well?
The life of Mrs. Bertha Sánchez has changed because of a virus that threatens the world. She, locked in her home, adapts to the important change and the challenge that society suffers. She finally finds a balance in her routine between what appears to be a dark reality and a bright learning opportunity.

Documentary filmmaker Rebecka Rasmusson becomes pregnant with the man she believes to love, when it turns out that he also has another woman. One evening in front of the TV, Rebecka sees an interview with the 90 year old premier queen Alice Timander who says she never felt loved. Rebecka decides to look her up and together insinuates itself a drama about love, betrayal, being a mother, daughter, and as a woman wearing a dream about making a career.